page 173 — June 1942

Biggest raid ever on Cologne, more than 1,000 bombers, all in 90 mins., one bomb each 6 seconds or more. Blimey. zar zwg

June

Monday 1^st

… I went to Frank in the first part of prep to have my maths paper corrected. He wants to get Daddy’s opinion about his arthritis of the hip, which seems to be extremely painful. He liked Daddy’s ‘Fears May be Liars’—in fact he admires Daddy a lot. zfl zmw zil zmt zby

Tuesday 2^nd

… Max jaw. (a) I’m aloof. (b) I’m selfish. … By aloof he means I don’t mix with the rest of the house well. Considering (a) their lack of interests and (b) their lack of morals (this applies to some 30% of the possibles for mixing with) and (c) their unattractive personalities, I’m not surprised or ashamed that I don’t. I do occasionally go out with crowds, but am not usually well received or happy. Perhaps I suffer from (c) but actually I think its just that the effort of talking about uninteresting things is too great. … I remained comparatively polite and uncommunicative throughout. Silly worm . … zsd zop ztc zem zsy

1036 [planes] went out to Essen, 1001 returned. Small loss [35 planes], horrid mess there. zar zwc

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